Sometimes you come to a point in your life when you realize like Joseph in the bible that what some meant for bad. God will work out for good! Its been a lot of learning to trust God for me the past few years and all i can say is. Never doubt if God loves you! He cares more than i can ever say! And he has brought me to the happiest time in my life. If you follow God he really will give you the desires of your heart. But sometimes He has to take you out alone by yourself for you to hear and follow in his steps and do his will. Dont give in to the crowd around you. Just cause everyone else is doing it doesnt make it right for you. Love God and he will love you more!